My Journey So Far
Its only fair that if i’m going to write about being on a fitness journey, that I give some photo evidence of my journey. I am a big work in progress, but for the first time since I started dieting and exercising four months ago, I am finally starting to notice some changes. They are subtle, and I still have a long way to go, but I am making progress. I feel stronger, healthier, and happier. I lifted the most weight i’ve ever been able to lift in my life today and I hiked a mile and half successfully this past weekend. I was never able to do those things before. I know i’m on the right track and i’m here to show anyone, that no matter what stage you are at in your life, you can make a change too and become a healthier, happier person.
To understand my journey, we need to go back five years ago (see top left picture below)-when I was at my skinniest, not healthiest, but when I weighed practically nothing-115lbs. I was eating terribly because I was very young and my metabolism was still wonderful, I wasn’t exercising because I didn’t think that I needed to. I was very insecure, unhappy, and very stressed. Fast forward two years (top right picture below), I had gained about 15lbs, so I was now 130lbs, my life had started to settle and I became more content, I was more confident. I was very happy with my body, with my weight, I was glad to put on some weight, to have some “curves”, but I was still living that same lifestyle as before-no exercise and eating fast food-all the time.
Well two years went by again, and this was me last summer (Bottom pictures listed above)-I gained 70lbs, I was at 200lbs-I was depressed, stressed and had just given up. My metabolism changed, I aged and I was not living a healthy lifestyle. I would work my desk job, sit in traffic, come home, eat, eat, and eat my feelings some more, crawl in bed and not move until I had to walk to my car the next morning to go to work.
I did this until December 2018-I woke up depressed and disgusted with myself. I needed to make a change-I could not keep on living that way. I mentally changed that day, I had never wanted to change so badly in my whole life, I wanted happiness, I wanted to love myself again, I wanted to feel beautiful, I wanted to be healthy.
I decided to put loving myself before everything else in my life, before my relationship, before my family, before my job. I was going to lose weight and get healthy and nothing was going to stop me.
I started to hit the gym, and fix my diet. Over the course of the next four months I made drastic changes. I cut out dairy, caffeine, soda, reduced fried foods and cut out 90% of sugar out of my diet. I go to the gym five days a week minimum and love every second of it. And I’ starting to love myself again.
Here I am at 187lbs, strong, building muscle, and feeling healthy. I have a long way to go to get to my goal but I am loving myself through my journey, including all the lumps, bumps, and rolls.
If you are on a journey too, please remember to love yourself through it, be kind, and to not give up!
Girl on a Journey